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June 12 Standing Tall in the Reaper's SwathThere is an glyph called the Triskellion and it fits today. Imagine 3 symbols for mind, body, spirit. Imagine these images are Zen symbols meant to be the swirling winds of chaos--of storm. The 3 storms are connected to each other by lines of straight lightening. Imagine you stand at the intersection of the lightening bolts. You stand alone, calm, solid, and stayed in the eye of the storm. You are at peace, above and apart from the chaos whipping around you--for you are centered. This is the Triskellion. This is you. You are firm, calm, alone in the madness, and you stand tall and clear. If you ever need to see it, it hangs around my neck and I've been told that it's me. Today, I took an early lunch to take care of some personal business and to get out of the cube. I needed to get out in the sun as it was a strange day...not much going on--though I still got stuff done--and the timber of the office was...subdued, ominous, apprehensive...odd. I had the headphones on and tried to plug away as I could while sharing time and laughs with my teammates when we got together for conversations. During my outside time for lunch the heads started to roll at work, 4 days early. A friend at work had told me--earlier in the week--that this would start on Thursday (today) and that information was spot on. My early lunch, and being marked out on the board caused some panic and concern amongst my teammates when they saw the Reaper's swath cutting down ranks...., "Where's Jason? He doesn't leave this early normally...he's marked out on the board...did he get laid off?" I had no idea about any of this happening until I came back and Charles popped over to give me the head's up, "Not a good day to lunch early." That caught my interest. He filled me in and told me about the concern my teammates had for me. That means a Hell of a lot to me. It's touching. We have a tight and talented group. I quipped that I had marked that I was returning on the board. :o) M teammates' concern meant a lot to me. The rest of the day was somber, down, and apprehensive. How can it not be? Lots of conversation, lots of concern, lots of good luck wishes...then a source told me that the all clear note would be given at 4pm, this also ended up being true. I am safe. My teammates are safe. This is awesome!! Since March, we've been up in the air and on notice...very tense. As of this evening, I have a job. I don't know what the new position will be, I hope it will be good, I hope it will be fun. I hope I have my friends around me. I am celebrating tonight. I'm toasting it up, I'm deflating, I'm thanking the fates and the blessings. As of today, I have a beautiful new car, my house is getting in order, and I have the WAMP (Windows, Apache Server, MySQL, and PHP) up and running. I have the GUI tools running. I have side projects under way and I have success being achieved. This has been a huge period for me. I was given 3 late in the game opportunities to show my skills, to rise up in the chaos, and I seized each opportunity to do so and I ran with it. I had a major hurdle to overcome in my mind, but that's where that notion will stay. I did it. I'm free of it. It tried to sell me down the river. It was wrong, it was misguided, and it was misinformed about me and my intentions; it shouldn't have lost faith. I stood calm despite that and I took direct action--I achieved. That success isn't stopping any time soon for I have risen above the hurdle and I have not changed my attitude nor sold out my being, but that's a story for a private conversation amongst trusted and select friends. My team survived!! This is a great joy to me as I truly value them as a friends and teammates; from director to manager to the team members--all are valued highly by me. We will continue to achieve and push the boundaries. We did loose one key friend though and she will be missed sorely. She has a ton of talent and is a great teammate. Live well, laugh often, love much, June 06 Good Work and Recognition During Tough Times Recently I've had 3 unexpected chances to shine, step up, and get good recognition during this layoff period. The senior I.S. leadership has honored me with their recognition and thanks. It's been a pleasure working with Fairview and the team. The environment has been fantastic, my teammates are incredible, and I've really enjoyed being apart of it all. No matter what happens on the 16th, at least it was a good thing for 7 years. Here's the nice write up they gave me in a system newsletter:
There are some good tidbits behind this story and I'll share some of
them after the 16th. I was also given some private and personal
recognition as well. This is all greatly appreciated by me in these
times as it's a good boost to my spirits. May 09 The live or die date is... I just wanted to share an update. On Wednesday we had meetings from about 10 AM to the end of my day. The meetings were an update on what's happening in the restructuring of I.S. and the the time line (and procedure) for the impending layoffs. The live or die date is June 16th. I will know my fate then. What's happened in short: Our web team was broken up. We're done. However, we're a keystone group for the organization (as we have our hands in so many areas) and all applications are becoming web delivered things. So my manager and director have said that my team will all land in some new branch or team. This promise is nice, but I don't count on future promises as they can fail to come through. The changing of I.S. is huge and it runs from top to bottom; as such, this is a large moving target subject to constant shifting until all is said and done. No one knows what the final landscape will be yet, but it's coming into shape. What's going to happen is that everyone in I.S. will have to apply for the new job descriptions in the new areas. My team is going to be spread to the wind. I'm going to try for the development branch (and I can finally ditch the pager). If the in house development branch isn't a possibility then I'll shoot for the innovation branch. If not that, then maybe I'll take a crack at the project management branch. The way they are going to do this new assignment stuff is to have everyone fill in a template form online that lists your current information, your skills, and your weaknesses. Your managers will also fill out a form on you with the same areas. You will then add in your desired new positions (the ones you are saying you want) and they will then do some sort of matching process based--at times--on seniority. It is possible that you may be conscripted into an area if they have that slated for you. The live/die date is June 16th for this round of changes (personally I think that some applications and members will also be moved in the future), but the application for the new positions occurs during my the first week of June until my--and Lowell's--birthday. If you are not put in a position, severance packages will be offered and they may be structured specially for each individual as needed. Some people are the sole providers of support for some applications so they may be retained as an on call contractor when the need--or the time to train the new teams--comes. I may be judged to be one of these special people as I am the sole web guy for all of Fairview's--and the U of MN's--patients via MyChart. If I land in a new position, I have a number of things to consider. It could be that the new position or team blows. It could also be fantastic! That's something I'll just have to watch develop. I can say, that one of the reasons I have staid with Fairview--after Grant, Scott, and myself were moved from marketing into straight development--was because of my team and management. We have a superstar team and great people. We always help each other out and have a very strong camaraderie. I do make less working for a nonprofit...I just believe in the mission of Fairview and it's been very rewarding to know that I've had a direct effect on thousands of patients' ability to get at their records, order refills, order home supplies, make appointments, and improve their lives with easy access to information. Money is not my top driver in life, but it is a consideration; I believe you should work to live, not live to work. I like my free time and just want to be able to enjoy life. Other things I will have to take under consideration during this time: I could go up a grade or even down a grade. My pay could slide 5% either way. A dip in my earnings at this time would be harsh, but I'd still have work. If it dropped 5%, you could say that it's really dropping around 10% with the inflation and cost of living increases in the last number of years. I would feel a pinch for sure! But, I'd have a job and benefits and can always look after landing in the new area. While things in the professional realm are a bit topsy-turvy, I'm still upbeat and positive. It's just been stressful not knowing. Now I have a date to work around. I have a lot to do online and in cleaning up the resume, but that's all underway. I have been networking and conversing with people as well. I will post this email's information on all of my 7,000 web spaces as well. Oddly, but it happens in periods of high activity for me, I have 3 new creative ideas (one documentary, 1 novel, and 1 great short story idea). It may be that I go back to professional TV/Film again. Who knows what the future holds? I'm just glad I've got my friends to enjoy the ride with. Keep the chin up, I will. Take care and enjoy the day! Jason Henke "When he's on the Jazz there's trouble; he's on the Jazz." --B.A. Baracus "If there are no dogs in Heaven, then when I die, I want to go where they went. --Will Rogers May 07 The live/die date. Your fate and the green mileWell. the gallows date has been set. June 16th. The webteam, my team, is done. They broke us up. We'll have to choose the Development route or the support route. It's sad to loose such a great team. We are a power group and have a ton of talent. It's most sad to loose Scott--our manager--as well. It's a black day. We will all have to reapply for our jobs and select our desired positions from a new list during my birthday week June 8th. Ugh. We have to list our skills, our weaknesses, and then our managers will weigh in behind the scenes as well. We then choose our desired jobs and we see if we get what we want or not (you could be conscripted into a different position). Well, there are positives to this. I could be separated from user management and support. This would be desired. I think I'm best aimed at development and innovation. I could go for project management or even the strategic area if needed. What a friggen' mess. I'll tell you something very personal: from my last birthday to this one...it's not been fun. It may be the worst period I've been through. I may end up hating the approach of my birthday if this trend continues. Ugh. Well, keep swining and get the resume up to date and out in the wild, eh? Let's see what happens. It's a long shot, but I could up my position in the end. I would strongly prefer development (or anything) instead of user support. I would love to leave Help Desk 2 behind. It's an area that has really grated on me in the end. wish me luck if you care. I'll take all prayers I can get. May your smiles never fade. April 24 Early June - Layoffs We had a departmental meeting today. Not much shared, but early summer was the vaugely worded action date given for the layoffs and reorganization. From the follow up attempts to pin more precise numbers down failing, I watched body language and came away with end of May or beginning of June to be the dates. It does sound like they have a feel for the changes coming and the new structure, but that not everything is nailed down yet. That's to be expected if you make large corporate process changes at the same time you are changing structure. There will be a "no new work" period as the board communicates with the customers of I.S. Wish us luck! I'm glad I've been saving and trying to get ready. April 14 Dead tired, eyes burning, studying ASP.NET 3.5 Step By StepDoing work at home on my clock. Preparing skills, studying, reading, and am barely awake.
It's been a tough day from the sleepiness standpoint. I'm really wiped out. It's been a very tough thing to stay coherent today. My eyes are truely burning.
Just finished dinner, am putting laundry away, and then it's right back to the book. I do a lot of studying at home for this job; a ton...it's even how I spend most lunches (unless I need to catch a momentary nap in the car); doing this is required to stay current. It's also the source of burnout for many in the industry. You have to learn everything and you can't stop.
On an aside, and related to work, I hate politics in the cubes. I'm a good teammate, I take care of the tasks brought to me and the projects I'm asked to do. I have faith that my teammates are also great at their jobs, I trust them, I know how hard they work at doing good for our projects and patients; I love how we all help each other out. I get irritated when Yes Men wormtounge others for their own benefit.
I also hate when they're believed not becuase of evidence but because of their closeness to their bosses. March 10 The pager leaves my hands--Yeah!! Today is a great day, the on call pager is passed off to the next victim. I must admit: I hate being on call. It's just not a part of my duties that I enjoy, but it's a necessary part of the job and I'm not alone in it. I doubt that there are many who enjoy the restricted on call duties they have to do for their job. Ces La Vie, it's done with for this round. I have a ton to do at work (it's been very busy) and some short time lines are in place for some new projects. I'll be most busy. March has proven to be quite busy overall actually. In like a lion I guess. This first quarter of business has been hopping with work for our team. I don't expect that to change. I think I'm taking Friday off just for the Hell of it. March 05 Wednesday, on call...usually the turning point I've come to dread Wednesdays on call...it's usually the doomsday start. I think it's the day most people decide they need to do something--anything--before the weekend comes. After all, nobody works on Friday right? I was also reminded of a T-Shirt I saw: There are only 10 types of people in the world; those who get binary and those who don't. |
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